Despair

I feel so wrecked... The embarrasment of going to prom alone is a weight I can't hold... I've decided I actually might not go... This pain in my gut won't subside and I feel like vomiting though nothing comes out... Genuine fear, I feel first and never more again. Who could care less right? I'm not good enough and never will be... So in retrospect the money I would have spent can be forwarded to my ongoing and might I add, expensive education. I will leave school after next lesson... I can not bear the thought of ridicule... I can't stand it anymore! And now more than ever I wish that rope had caught my neck and the echoing snap be heard for ever...

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